i apply my personality in paste

haha

Fri, 19 Sep 2003 02:56:18 GMT

SpiritFilledSmo: hmm you have cooties...that is all

Auto response from SpiritFilledSmo: you want me to get naked and start the revolution?

SpiritFilledSmo: dear jesus....

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i love you smo

Thu, 18 Sep 2003 23:53:34 GMT

so the whole jacobs thing is getting strange. and what i mean by that is every situation that is a little off, is some how connected to jacobs.

1. adam. hes acting...different. nicer. more um, touchy feely. like hugging me, and putting his arm around me, and wanting to dance a lot more. he asked me fri. about andrew. he thought we were going out. ever since then things have been different.

2. billy and i "made our peace" and now i'm getting e-mails from lora and the girls. they miss me and wanna hang out. its like they weren't allowed before.

3. matt. he told sara that he did not hate me nor did he hate me. he loves me. ??????

4. erik. we didn't speak last night.

i'm off work all week next week. yay! i'm going to visit a friend in way up north ohio.

BEKA BETTER BE AT JACOBS FRI.

anyone who needs a ride to jacobs r.s.v.p. now. 3 seats left. leave call me cell or leave a comment. $2 for gas.

adding to the list...

Wed, 17 Sep 2003 02:35:16 GMT

- i have mood swings
- i try not to cuss and if i do, you know its bad.
- i hate the "pu" word, and the "cu" word.
- i cry a lot.
- i pick fights when i have p.m.s.

so now i'm going to jacobs tonight. in a green skirt and thigh high fishnets.

Bongey wrote this song for Andrew about the situation with Tymandra:

I swear I'm not homosexual
I swear we won't have sexual
intercourse
but I bet you taste good.

They say i look just like Benji,
It's a shame that you think he,
and his band
really suck.

And I swear I'm not homosexual
I swear we won't have sexual
intercourse
but I bet you taste good.

I met you at the gay bar
One more drink and we'll go far
Only not
All the way.

I swear I'm not homosexual
I swear we won't have sexual
intercourse
I just wanna lick your pussy.

p.s.

Tue, 16 Sep 2003 05:17:49 GMT

grease 2 is on and the mothman scares the shit out of me.

Tue, 16 Sep 2003 04:45:51 GMT

first some pics:

the last two are in hopes of cheering bongey up. the first one is just pure vanity. its the only good one of me in glasses.

so today i bought a lot of stuff.
-fishnet socks
-fishnet thigh highs
-sport sock knee highs with pink stripes
-a new venus passion pink razor
-a really hot outfit to wear dancing fri.

i ran across a picture of an ex online earlier. it just made me think "what the hell was i thinking?" he wasn't cute, he wasn't a good person, and i don't really knwow what the hell we had in common. he didn't know anything about me. he just wanted me to know about him.

so this is me. this is my list for the future ex boyfriends:

- i haven't eaten meat since i was 4.
- i don't want to have sex right now because i haven;t found anybody worth having sex with.
- i've never smoked anything or been drunk.
- i like animals.
- i want a daughter.
- i like expensive and non-expensive things.
- i wear fake glasses but real contacts
- i like food
- i like cartoons and video games
- i like taking pictures of people.
- i hate work
- i hate being told to do things.
- i dislike a lot of girls.

thats all i have for now. i might add more later.

Sun, 14 Sep 2003 22:20:38 GMT

Mitch Hedberg was wrong... this is the cutest infestation ever.

and this one is for bongey:

e-mail me for the ones of you.

Sat, 13 Sep 2003 20:27:13 GMT

by the way...

what the hell is her problem. shes just pissed because he didn't go for her. bitch.

Sat, 13 Sep 2003 20:25:53 GMT

well. today i bought:

- a purple and black lace corset (since the one i bought before never came)
- a hot pink garter belt (its hot pink!)
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all before 4.

i owe my dad a lot of money

Sat, 13 Sep 2003 17:38:38 GMT

last night sara, joey, jessie, bongey, tymandra, and i all went to jacobs. fun. but on the way there tymandra saw a bug on my seatbelt. she told us and we all started screaming and i was trying to get away from it and drive at the same time so we were all over 32. i finally got my car to the side of the road and slammed it into park before i was even stopped. everyone jumped out of the car but sara and i and i was on her lap. the whole time we were all screaming. finally jessie got in the car and put the GRASSHOPPER on the road. ew. it was huge. and gross. but it was really funny afterwards.

i gave everyone tattoos on their arms. i danced with 4 gay guys at the same time. jessie picked up 2 really cute guys. i hate him. joey kissed the bartender and got free drinks. on the way home we stopped by joey and sara's old house and sara and tymandra stole the beer from the party rick and matt had. for some reason no one was there. it all in my car. i don't like beer so i don't know what to do with it. rick called on the way home and i was too tired to comprehend what he was saying. something about calling the police.

today my head is pounding. i woke up and i was sooooooo hungry. so erik and i went to ruby tuesdays. i got a nasty veggie burger. i have never had one so bad before. ew. erik bought me a huge thing of the good ice cream. he bought it for me last night but i wasn't home. its not graters but its good. i get graters next fri. and burritos. and to dance.

...

more later

Fri, 12 Sep 2003 01:59:53 GMT

my head hurts. hmph.

tymandra and i are having a "girls night" tomorrow. at jacobs. we are going to cause lots of trouble and stay out all night.

i'm going to make a new skirt tonight.

and watch tv. i love late night tv. the cabel was out last night so i went to blockbuster to drop off my overdue movie (house of a thousand corpses) it sucked even more the second time. i saw mitch and hope in the parking lot. i love them

Wed, 10 Sep 2003 23:50:25 GMT

kelly and i had lunch today. we went to applebees. she brought thomas. he is sooo cute. he has these huge blue eyes and this goofy smile. he made me happy.

last night sara called with a friend emergency. i went over there because she needed to talk asap. she was really depressed. so went over there. hung out with her for a while. then we went to kinko's to get boxes. then i went home. dyed my hair. and painted my toenails.

so kelly is on her way here now. we are going to take pictures. she is late. like always. its weird how now that i've moved out of my dad's, i like kelly. shes funny.

Wed, 10 Sep 2003 04:31:25 GMT

so today i got:
- cherry red toenails
- honey blonde roots in an attempt at dyeing my hair blonde
- a nacho lunchable
- good ramen noodles
- a pink jacket
- 2 cds
- followed by 2 guys at kroger
- to see sara
- red velvet chair

i figured today would be a good day because when i walked into work billy idol was playing on the radio. it was just an ok day. i'm going to get evicted i think. theres a party fri. i don't think i'll go to. seems so imature. i don't know.

Mon, 08 Sep 2003 02:28:36 GMT

my head hurts.

vanity, insecurity

Sat, 06 Sep 2003 22:27:36 GMT

i got the internet at home.

and some new user pictures.

i might get a paid account.

more later.

Fri, 05 Sep 2003 22:21:17 GMT

i get the internet at home tomorrow! finally. i'm such a geek.

um. tonight. dancing with sara at jacobs. or something equally as fun. we just want to hang out.

tomorrow. out with tymandra. i'm not sure what we'll do. we went to plush last sat. it was weird. not what i expected at all. i'm supposed to model for her sometime this week.i was going to tue. but i lost my cell phone and therefore lost her number. the security people at work found it.

paul is moving out!! very exciting. hes on vacation all weekend and mon he moving out. erik has started packing his stuff already so we can get him out sooner.

Thu, 21 Aug 2003 22:32:39 GMT

oh yeah. i've decided not to try to fight matt back. i don't know why hes acting like this. i have a pretty good idea though. let him talk about me. let him act like hes 5. i don't care. its matt coffey. i don't know why everyone thinks his approval is so important. hes nothing. hes never going to be anything or get anywhere. thats all. i'm done.

you think your too cool for school. but i've got news for you, your not.

Thu, 21 Aug 2003 22:29:21 GMT

i saw everyone last night. they are so cute. sara and joey and i stole lawn decorations. matt is a liar.

erik yelled at me at 6am today. for locking the door. he had to get up and unlock it because they won't put the key under the mat because "its not safe". and keeping the door unlocked is? i want out. badly. or him out.

my cats got fixed. so depressing. it was so hard leaving them. i cried all the way home.

i'm going to london (maybe?) at the end of sept.

jacobs fri.!!!! yay!!!

Thu, 31 Jul 2003 22:18:37 GMT

erik and I got in an argument last night. long story. but I think the results only went the way I wanted them to go because he felt guilty. it was an apartment fight. this is the gist of it.

him: I don’t want to live with a girl, I never have.
me: you could have told me this before. it just came out of no where and you’ve left me in a really bad situation.
him: how so?
me: I don’t have anywhere to go. I’ll have to move to my dads. that requires me to get rid of my cats and all my stuff.
him: maybe if you didn’t spend all your extra money on clothes you’d have the money to get the new place alone. you have more fucking clothes than anyone I’ve ever met.
me: I buy those “fucking clothes” because having them is the only way I ever feel pretty.

there was a lot more before that. but that’s where it kind of ended. I don’t really know what to think right now. we are still getting the new place but I don’t want him to move in just to make me happy.

in happier states of mind:

Jacobs on Fri. then sara is buying me dinner/breakfast.
Plush on Sat. with Sara, and Tymandra.

Wed, 30 Jul 2003 22:21:04 GMT

I really really really really really want blonde hair. But I really really really don't want to ruin my hair. I need to talk to someone whos done this before.

Wed, 30 Jul 2003 21:43:03 GMT

last night alexa, sara, tymandra, mike, andrew and i went to vertigo. we ended up getting
on the huuuge platform and dancing all night. it was fun.

i stopped by sara's to pick her up. everyone there assued me that everything was ok between
us. they don't believe matt. even wayne doesn't believe him. which is good. i told joey if
he pays matt's rent again i will never talk to him again. hes letting himself get pushed
around. and no more parties. if they have another they get evicted. which sucks.

i want to go home. i miss erik.

Tue, 29 Jul 2003 22:17:58 GMT

i'm offically pissed. at matt. he is a liar. i was told form the begining of our friendship
that he was. but i didn't listen. i was told he was a bad person. and he was unreliable.
but i didn't listen. i offered him a place to stay when he was living in his car because
i actually felt bad for him. i can't believe i was dumb enough.

hes a liar.

i'm done with him. i gave him so many chances.

i don't know the details but i really hope no one thinks bad of me because of him.

Thu, 24 Jul 2003 21:10:05 GMT

i went to that humanforsale.com website posted in bongey's journal. i am worth $1,907,038.00. someone buy me!

i bidded on a rainbow bikini top i will wear with a denim skirt, a red and black 80's style mini dress, and ballet slipper style shoes sold by helen.

Wed, 23 Jul 2003 20:10:29 GMT

my head hurts. its been hurting all day. i don't know if its the late night last night or my caffine addiction. or what. its hurts.

i want to go home and lay in bed and just sleep. i have another early mourning tomorrow. a meeting. and i don't want to go. i don't want to dress nice qand sit in a cold office with a bunch of people. not at 8am.

vertigo was fun last night. probably the most fun its ever been. the music was good. caleb and matt showed up. "the boy" asked me to go to jacobs with him. alexa and i had a good dinner before we went. and alexa and i got josh to go up on the platform and bootie dance with the gay boys. he lifted his shirt up and everything.

i'm going to go buy more things on ebay i can't afford. and then i'll post what i've won. ;o)

Tue, 22 Jul 2003 22:41:29 GMT

vertigo tonight.

i might be purchasing bongey's car.

i got my shirt. the red one with the pig. i *heart* it. i might wear it to vertigo tonight.
i'm expecting my pins today. but i haven't recieved word yet on the belt buckle or
the corset. i know i won them though. oh well.

erik got a job making $15 an hour. so we're bling blingn' now. or we will be at least.

i got a watch this weekend. i found the perfect one. i refused to wear one until i found
the most perfect watch in the world. i found it. i'll take a picture of it. it's
just that special.

my dad is trying to take my car away. lots of insurance and legal stuff. too much
drama.

i'm thinking about going to school in orange county. i'm not too sure yet though. i still
need to get more information. but we'll see. i don't really want to move somewhere far
unless i have some comforts from home. like a friend.

i get my new apartment soon. that means i get to start making my kitchen table. its going
to rock.

Thu, 17 Jul 2003 21:58:31 GMT

after reading my e-mail i found out that i am the new proud owner of:
- a bettie page belt buckle
- 2 bettie page pins
- a pink shirt that has a pig holding flowers and says "Don't eat me, I love you"
- and a black and white stripe corset that i will probably never wear.

i wonder when i will recieve all my goodies.